My hubby has always been my favorite person. I appreciated his work ethic as much as his selfishness toward himself and the world. However, I never imagined that job would be more appealing to him than his own family. Don’t get me wrong: he’s charming and polite. Our friendship has survived to this day as a result of this. There was a distinct distinction between relationships and employment.

I was never his backup plan. He had an odd capacity to strike a balance between two extremes: myself and his profession. However, as he grew older, he became even more insensitive. Even when we had children, he did not change in the way that most people do. He was overjoyed but in his unique manner. Lack of excitement and emotional control. For a little minute, I thought it bothered me, but that was not the case.

And now, when the kids were 10 and 15, dad had ceased noticing us. He is constantly thinking about his profession. Professional success appears to have been attained for quite some time. However, it is insufficient for him. He desires more, attempting to construct and develop something within it. I’m thinking about my family and how to raise my children right now. Homemaker and breadwinner roles were exaggeratedly split. Sometimes I think it’s all a dream.

His children, by the way, never see him. They are aware that they have a father and that he was once present in their lives but is no more. He joins us during holidays such as New Year’s. But what’s the point if the indigenous children can’t even talk to their fathers because they have nothing to say? I even attempted to approach his pals. They are all family men who value their work as much as he does. They simply don’t take it as seriously as he does.

Even folks who appear to see him more frequently than I do couldn’t offer me an understandable answer. They just gave generic counsel that would be applicable in their scenario or in the circumstances of a typical family, but not in ours. Special partnerships necessitate extremely specific solutions. It’s a habit you’ll have to develop. I’ll be honest and state that I’m concerned about our future. If the family breaks up, the children will be under a lot of stress.

This is really damaging to their mental health at their age. That is something I do not want to happen. But, in my current situation, the last thing I need is a family drama. Yes, I can get through on my own, but it does not mean that this is how things should go.